Thoughts...

Some of you may know, some may not. I have a cousin who's son has been battling cancer for pretty much his whole life. He's 6, just 3 months older than my Shyler. Well he's in the hospital right now, struggling and in pain. The doctors have said there isn't anything more they can do, his kidneys have stopped working and fluid is filling his poor little body. Yesterday they took the heart drain out, and today they stopped all medication for his heart.

As a parent and as a family member, I can't help but feel so overwhelmingly sad when I realize the pain and suffering they are all going through. I imagine what it would feel like to be in their shoes. To be losing one of my children. How easy would it be to let these feelings consume you? I'm amazed by people who have suffered such loss in their lives. I can only imagine. I'm so grateful that so far in my life, God has not chosen to give me a trial like that. I don't know that I'd be strong enough. I hope I would. I hope my faith in my Eternal Father would be enough to get me through it. That the fact that I know there is a Plan and that death is not the end. I just don't know if that would keep me afloat. I guess that means I have a lot more growing and soul searching to do...